Yes it’s been a while…

But I am NOT off program, no way!  I had an 800g loss the last time I weighed in!

I did however totally forget to weigh myself last Saturday.  We had an open house at home (we are trying to sell our apartment) so I was extremely busy Friday/Saturday morning cleaning, cleaning, cleaning EVERYTHING…  Since I w/i on Sat. mornings I thought I would just wait until THIS Saturday. I went to the gym… ONCE… well I have good excuses, really!  It’s just been very busy at home, plus I have had evening appts at my therapist AND psychiatrist (yes, psychiatrist).  This week I wanted to go Tues and Thurs, but R’s mum had another (little) stroke and so we are going to see her (she lives in a home – she had a big stroke several years ago) on those nights.  I have to say, R’s mum IS more important than the gym right now.  I have a diagnosis from my therapist and psychiatrist – they both agree I have PTSD.  Think that’s strange?  It’s not really – it’s not only for those who have served in battle.  I’ve had my own battles since I was around 10.  Basically everything that ever bothered me, which I didn’t allow myself to feel or talk about hit me like a ton of bricks almost 3 years ago.   In a way, I’m relieved.  Basically, I could NOT figure out WHY I was so depressed for SO long.  I mean, it’s not normal to have such a rollercoaster depression, be on meds, for more than 2 years and NOT see any light at the end of the tunnel.  So, anyway, that’s also another reason I hadn’t really posted – I had a bad couple of weeks. I seem to be on an up now, so let’s up I have this for a few weeks to make up for the bad!

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