No money - Shopping Anyway

So last night as I was working out I felt pretty pathetic about my actual workout gear.

I have no sports-bra, which I desperately need, considering the melons that have grown out of my chest.

I have no roomy t-shirts to wear, no sports/workout shirts.

My Nike lycra shorts are about 3 sizes too small, totally stretched out and has holes that grow each time I put them on.  Not to mention… I wore them painting the last time we worked in the house, so there are paint spots on them.

So, I put on a pink supportive bra, that I thought would do the trick, a small-strapped tee that I normally wear to bed, my hole-y shorts, a pair of black socks turned grayish that also had holes in them, and my adidas running shoes that are still in pretty good shape, considering I was all good intentions and no action when I bought them.

I’m ready to be serious about this.  It doesn’t really matter what you wear I suppose… but you know how it feels to be fat AND be in sloppy, ill-fitting clothing while you are trying to actually do something about it??? 

I decided this morning I would “buy” new workout clothes online where I know I can make a couple monthly payments.  I bought sports bras, workoutpants and a cuddly sweatshirt hoodie.  I know I could have waited, but why should I??  I plan on going OUT and walking as well… I can’t wear ill-fitting clothes then, can I?  Isn’t it embarrassing enough to go out with my body the way it is, just to the supermarket or work? 

R took pics of me this morning.  Ugh.  I’m so disgusted.  I’m glad he sees me differently than I do.

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