Could this really be it?

OK.  I get like this every time I restart.  I feel really good this time though.  This time is different.  This time I’m going to be successful and serious about losing weight, like I was in 1999- 2000.  I lost 28KG then and kept it off for almost 3 years.  When my life went down the toilet I guess I just thought “fuck it” and, on top of the anti-depressants, I drank a lot (good with a/d’s… Not!) and I didn’t eat properly.

I just want to do it now.  Get it going.  See the scale go down.  Feel better about myself.  Look better.  I don’t like the way I look at all.  I hate the clothes selection too.  I was way cooler when I was a normal size (not skinny mind you… just NORMAL… I was a curvy 10).

So even with wine and crispies (chips) included, on Saturday I weighed myself and this morning I weighed myself and there was a 1KG difference.  I know I shouldn’t scale hop and I’m not going to;  next time will be Saturday.

I’m totally into the Superfoods thing - when I “diet” I don’t really diet… I hate diets and restrictions.  I just change certain things.  More fruit and veg.  More “real” foods and less processed foods.  I’m also one of those people who don’t like 0% fat things.  We NEED fat, we just have to choose the RIGHT fat.

Anyway - today I’m going to publish exactly what I’m eating:

B - 2 scrambled eggs
splash of karnemelk (like buttermilk)
flax seeds - about a teaspoon
cumin
salt
pepper
handful of spinach, chopped

 L  - 3 slices of roggebrood (this isn’t any old rye bread, this is heavy duty stuff!)
approx 30 gr mexican cream cheese spread (LF)
alfalfa sprouts
carrots, julienned
cucumber slices

Snack - spinach salad
mushrooms
radishes
approx 50 g chicken
yoghurt dressing

125g bulgarian yoghurt
redberries, blueberries, flax

D - grilled plaice with garam massala herbs & olive oil
steamed flat peas
couscous with garlic, herbs, tomato

Weakness:  I’ve had 5 or 6 cappos from the machine today.  I just was given a weiner melange.  Yes, I’m addicted to caffiene.  What, I have to lose weight, stop drinking, stop smoking AND not have any coffee?  Puh-leeze!
1 Coke Light Lime
Strength:  Already had more than a litre and a half of water

R has talked me into doing my elliptical tonight - I wanted to get up early and do it, but I slept like absolute crap so I wasn’t able to force myself.

On the menu tonight:  fish & a veggie, maybe some rice or couscous.

That’s all for now.  Have to believe in myself this time to keep it up.

 update:  it’s way late, no working out tonight.  Otherwise, I ROCK on the food front!

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